Daily Archives: July 14, 2006



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Hakone Shrine

Tenzuiki Juto Oido
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San Kie-en Gardens

I took these while I was in Japan 10 years ago (man, it sure doesn’t seem like it has been that long.) Looking back now the shots are kind of crooked, and I just wish I had had a better camera, one with at least a zoom lense on it. The carving on the wood door was just amazing to behold, and I fear it wasn’t captured to well. But hey, a poor starving college student can’t be picky. and at least I was in Japan, right? 🙂


Filed under Japan, Photography


Ok, so after that last post I had to post something positive. 🙂 Yes the day was tough, but we had some fun moments too, and I got to go on a fun date with my hubby. I think the kids and I just needed a break from each other. 🙂 I am extra excited for tomorrow. We are going to the Lion Heart Festival in Portland. It is a fundraiser put on by the Children’s Heart Foundation, all the funds the raise fun research for congenital heart defects. It is an amazing group and we are lucky to have a chapter here in Oregon. (If you would like a chapter in your state there are ways to form one, and it talks about how on their website, see the link in my sidebar.) The festival is for the whole family and includes a special parade lead by CHD survivors and their families. We were able to attend last year, and this year I get to volunteer.

So, even though there are tough days, where I get to feeling pretty rotten, I am so richly blessed I am amazed. A long time ago when I was going through a bit of a rough patch I started to make a list of all the blessings I could think of. My list is well over 200 items long now. I thought about that today after I blogged earlier and began to review that list. I was grinning from ear to ear in less than 10 minutes.

“When upon lifes billows you are tempest tossed, when you are discouraged thinking all is lost, count your many blessings, name them one by one, and it will surprise you what the Lord has done . . .” (from the LDS hymn book)


Filed under Heart, Philosophy, Religion

There are moments when . . . .

I want to rip my hair out in shear frustration, but then I realize I’d look really bad bald.

I think I was crazy to have children, let alone four of them, but then I realize how empty life would be without them.

I want to pound something really hard, and I am grateful for my piano and composers who wrote really loud, wild music.

I want to kick something, and then I realize that no ammount of pain in my foot will mask the pain in my heart.

I want to scream and yell and pound the floor, but I don’t think I could handle the humiliation of being hauled away to the looney bin.

I wonder if I am really flunking bad in the school called mommyhood, but then my kids do something wonderful to help me know I must be doing something good.

I wonder if my nature really is divine, and I feel rather worthless and frustrated and I realize it is time to go pray.

Sorry to vent . . . it is just one of those days when the kids are more than I can take. It’s not mischief, it’s out right temper tantrums (even my 7 year), screaming, and fighting . . . and it is only 10:30 a.m. I fear it is going to be a long day . . . So I am off to search for that silver lining, because there must be one there somewhere. 🙂


Filed under Parenting